My Free Mexican Vacation — THE RUINS by Scott Smith

**BOOK SPOILERS AHEAD**

Something happened. Something spectacular. For four days, I was transported into the  Riviera Maya, on top of a pyramid in the jungle, observing—sometimes comfortably at a distance, sometimes not—the unlucky, unbelievable, terrifying, and, ultimately, tragic faith of four friends, Amy, Jeff, Stacy, and Eric, and their two international fellow travelers, Mathias and Pablo a.k.a. the German and the Greek. Yes. They might have been the ones written down on the pages of the 2006 horror novel The Ruins by Scott Smith, brought to life by the magic of prose, given exquisite, yet, short fictional lives, only to be tortured—physically and psychologically—by both supernatural hungry vines and a group of isolated indifferent Mayans. But me? Yes. I might have been the one reading those pages, taken the role of the real person with a pulse and a heartbeat, unassumingly doing more than just clenching the book with both hands, devouring their story, vanishing into their grim world, shockingly crossing an imaginary threshold and joining them… there. Joining them there.

Spectacular. Simply spectacular.

I must confess, it is difficult not to indulge in hyperbole when trying to express the magnitude of my newly found love for this book. The last time a novel made me feel ~this~ much was five years ago or so thanks to The Witching Hour by Anne Rice. But, unlike five years ago or so, this time I did not cry (actual, real tears) because of the sad ending. No. This time I was engulfed by a profound sense of dread. Of anger. Of injustice.

Before I move forward I would like to clarify that even though the novel left me feeling horribly when everything was said and done, I  was in constant awe of the author’s mastery in building such a believable group of people, of tangible life and death situations, all inside a tropical Mexican paradise paired with two unlikely monsters, the Mayans and the vines — the former for being cruelly detached and for not offering a helping hand, and the latter for its murderous appetite. (Bravo, Mr. Smith, bravo.)

Now, instead of regurgitating a boring synopsis of the book, and in case you haven’t gotten the gist of the story yet, all I’ll say is this: The Ruins is about tourists being stranded at a secluded archeological site, while sadistically getting tormented by carnivorous plants as well as being held hostage by the land’s natives whose weapon of choice were arrows (and a pistol).

All I want to mention about the main characters, all four American friends plus the German and the Greek, is that Amy reminded me a bit too much about myself and damn, I think I need to change a thing or two about my Type A personality because girl, take a Xanax, please! Stacy was the last one standing but chose to commit suicide (what? I warned you at the very beginning of this post about spoilers, did I not?) because she was so freaking scared of spending the night alone I mean giiiiiirl, what the actual f*ck!? Eric, Mathias, and Pablo were super cool and have nothing much to say about them, well, except that the way Eric sliced his entire skin off like a banana was, ahem, bananas! Bad for Eric, great for us, body horror enthusiasts. And yeah, I left the best for last, Jeff.

Jeff was my favorite character in the book and in the movie (that’s correct, they made a movie  in less than two years after the book’s release, if that doesn’t tell you that the book was amazing I don’t know what will), and was also the only one whose character stayed pretty much the same in both the book and the movie (everyone else was a mix-and-match if I tell you the truth). Jeff was the rock, the leader, always thinking about the present and the immediate future, always executing and delegating tasks to help the entire group, the group was his number one priority; shelter, water, food, repeat.

[Here is where I briefly take a pause and tell you that the last few dozen pages of The Ruins hurt me and I loved it (oh, to be human); I was astonished that I could feel so much for a fictional character, for someone who represented hope and strength. Let’s continue.]

On the third day, his last, at the very moment when his depleted body took over his thoughts and made him choose survival over logic, Jeff knew he was done. Self-doubt was his real enemy, not the vine, not the Mayans. Arrows to the neck and to the chest might have taken him down, vines might have dragged him back into the pyramid and eaten his face and body, but his fear of failing the group, of not taking the miraculous chance at running for help while  the sudden, heavy fog sheltered him from the Mayan’s view, of not taking the risk and later on regretting it? No, he would not allow himself that… 1, 2, 3, run… [pain, darkness, silence.]

“You really think that’s still her? You really think that has the slightest thing to do with Amy anymore? That’s an object now, Stacy. An it. Something without movement, without life.” —Jeff

In Love and Fear,

—Marath

P.S. Thoughts about The Ruins (2008)? It was a good film and still holds its own in 2023 but, in my personal opinion, the book is the one transporting you into the story, taking you into Mexico, into the Riviera Maya, and the movie is just what you watch during your flight there.

© 2016-2023

BEHIND CLOSED DOORS: Why You Do Me This Way?

WHY!? Why you do me this way, Behind Closed Doors? What did I do to deserve such aggravation? 10 out of 10 triggered.

Hahaha, in all seriousness, I loved (L-O-V-E-D) this book so much and I am so happy to be here to tell you all about it. So, girlfriend, go make yourself comfortable and get ready to be gaslit (gaslighted?) second-handedly thanks to B. A. Paris and her exquisite, yet malevolent, main character—whom I did not (did not!) grow to adore—Mr. Jack Angel.

*SPOILERS AHEAD*

Few are the fiction authors whose writing style is so captivating I cannot put down their books and each paragraph, each chapter, feeds a sort of hunger that can only be satiated by more words, more prose. In the case of this thriller and suspense masterpiece, B. A. Paris kept nourishing me non-stop by way of psychological fiction, even if each bite hurt and made me feel sick, I could not stop asking for more, no, demanding for more as it was simply too delicious.

From the very start we were made aware that Grace Angel, Jack’s wife, was hiding something sinister and none of her acquaintances had a clue of it (well, Esther kind of did) and it was heartbreaking learning little by little how despicable Jack, the perfect husband and perfect lawyer, really was. Behind Closed Doors was Grace’s story told by her while jumping from The Past to The Present in each chapter and, in a brilliantly told way, she gave us morsels of information in one chapter to only jump to the next to lead us to believe that whatever we thought happened might had happened (the narrative played with time), to then—bam!—confirm in the next one, and in gut-wrenching graphic detail, that indeed it did. The best way I can describe this literary back and forth dance would be to compare it to sex; the rhythm from one chapter only got amplified on the next to only explode in the following one.

Now, having said that, did I like to learn that Jack allegedly killed his mom when he was a teenager and worshiped his violent dad to only blame him for his crime? No, I did not. Did I like to learn that Jack gave Grace a dog to only starve it to death? No, I didn’t! Did I enjoy learning of Jack’s plan to use Grace to get to Millie, Grace’s younger sister with Down syndrome, so he could torture her? NO! OF COURSE NOT! But did I appreciate how he did all those things? Mmmh, I mean, I was not mad about it…

Please, hear me out, don’t judge me too hard, okay? I feel like you can tell where I am coming from, given that we are both horror fans with a soft spot for troubled, good looking, bad boys… what was that? How do I know he was good looking? Oh, damn, I actually don’t know but all I can say is that the whole time I was picturing him like this:

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[I can thank The Invisible Man (2020) for the male image cue due the movie’s subject on domestic abuse… *eye roll*]

So, as I was saying, Jack was problematic but in a non-repulsive kind of way and, truth be told, on the chapter where Grace escapes from her room and tries to hide downstairs in the pitch-black sitting area while doing her best not to make a sound so Jack wouldn’t find her, he, all of the sudden, breathes on her right cheek and says “Boo!”—AAAH!—I lost it here. I loved that my brain was being extra generous with me in that specific moment and let me enjoy that scene to the maximum by ‘feeling’ Jack’s breath on my own right cheek and by ‘hearing’ that Boo on my right ear and by giving me goose bumps so hard that I had to put the book down and stand up to shake it off. (Yes, I looked like a crazy person when this happened but I mean who cares.)

I am not going to talk about the ending but I will say this, I wish Grace had been there with Jack when “it” happened so that we could have heard all the gory juicy details, alas, just by knowing that “it” happened and that Esther had Grace’s back (God bless her female instinct) and that she and Millie were now free and safe, girl, that was all we could have really asked for.

If I didn’t make myself clear, this book was such a hard hitter that at times it made me feel gross and triggered and offended and, at other times (most of the times?), the total opposite (don’t judge me). I would highly recommend Behind Closed Doors if you are in the mood for mind games and some good old fashioned gaslighting all while being entertained by a handsome psychopath. #sorryNOTsorry

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In Love and Fear,

-Marath

© 2016-2021

STOLEN THINGS: Who Was Harper Cunningham?

Who was Harper Cunningham? Who was this girl whose rescue was so desperately important to Laurie and Jojo Ahmadi, a relentless mother-daughter duo?

Oh, hi! Today I would like to talk—without spoiling anything—about the 2019 suspense novel Stolen Things by R. H. Herron, but first, confession time: I bought this book mainly because I thought the cover was pretty… no, no, don’t judge me too hard, I promise to you I am not shallow! You see, I was at Barnes & Noble, browsing aimlessly when I saw a pair of white shoes surrounded by a sea of bright pink, so, naturally, I zeroed in on it, walked toward it, grabbed it, and said to myself, I am getting this, whatever this is. Luckily, the synopsis written on the dust jacket (excerpt below) had this amazing pull on me and I was one-hundred percent sold on it, plus, the fact that it was stated by the author, a former 911 fire/medical dispatcher, that the book was “loosely inspired by actual events” made me want to start reading it right there and then!

“Laurie Ahmadi has worked as a 911 police dispatcher in her quiet Northern California town for almost two decades, but nothing in her nearly twenty years of experience could prepare her for the worst call of her career—her teenage daughter, Jojo, is on the other end of the line. She is drugged, disoriented, and in pain, and even though the whole police department springs into action, there is nothing Laurie can do to help.

Jojo, who has been sexually assaulted, doesn’t remember how she ended up at the home of Kevin Leeds, a pro football player famous for his work with the Citizens Against Police Brutality movement, though she insists he would never hurt her. And she has no idea where her best friend, Harper, who was with her earlier in the evening, could be.”

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Oh man, the book was such a page-turner thanks to the cliffhangers at the end of each chapter, I mean, without exception, chapter after chapter, cliffhanger after cliffhanger, the story kept getting bigger and more complex, but without being confusing. Also, the fact that each chapter was super short allowed me to maintain a high level of interest in the developments, all of which had a nice flow together.

The story felt plausible, even if at times I found myself saying ‘As if’ or ‘Yeah right’ when it came down to Laurie’s behavior, I even  cringed a handful of times because of her which I thought was fascinating. (I wonder if that was the author’s intention, to make the reader feel uncomfortable with the most mundane of human behaviors.)

The events happened in a period of four consecutive days which naturally added a sense of urgency. From Friday, when Jojo got attacked, to Monday, when, well, you would have to read the book to find out – no spoilers here, not today! The story was told from Laurie’s perspective, as well as Jojo’s, and the narrative had such a satisfying back and forth, from person to person, from experience to experience, from mother to daughter, from real world adult consequences to forgiving teenage misfortunes. There were instances when you, as the reader, had already found a piece of the puzzle thanks to one of the main characters, while the other was still in the dark and you saw her struggle and wanted to shout at them! (This was so refreshing, the author really knew what she was doing with us, making us agonize over things and stuff.)

I found it exhilarating how the tragic events played out, one after another, non-stop. It went from bad to worse to worst, and fast! From a terrifying 911 call, to a kidnapping, to a rescue, to a rape, to a murder, to an NFL player’s arrest, to a missing person, to a heart attack, to sex trafficking, to suicide, to blackmail, to corruption, to break-ins, to coming outs, to first loves, to injustices, to betrayals, to lies, to fights, to surprises, to more tragedies... this book had one suspenseful thing after another and I loved every page of it.

But wait, what about Harper Cunningham? Well, I’ve saved the best for last.

Yes, Laurie and Jojo joined forces to try to find Harper who was reported missing on the same day Jojo was raped. No, the Police Department did not try hard enough to find her and it seemed they were “better off” if she remained lost. Yes, Laurie and Jojo played dirty at times in order to get ahead. Yes, they broke into places and things and little by little realized Harper had two lives, one of which was riddled with sadness and grave consequences. No, they were not ready to face the harsh truths about this very adult sixteen-year-old woman. No, even though we were ~this~ close to the real Harper, we did not find out why she was that way – why was she that way?? Who was Harper Cunningham?

Dear R. H. Herron, I would like to politely request you give us Part 2 of Stolen Things, but now from Harper’s perspective. Please, let us know why she turned out that way. I can almost taste the robust backstory of her childhood, of her adolescence, all predictably traumatizing yet amazing in the most human way… please, tell us who Harper really was, tell us who broke her, I beg you, please, tell us!

Respectfully,

-Marath

P.S. The eerie image of Harper smiling and blowing a kiss with both hands to Jojo is going to haunt me tonight, thank you. I mean it.

© 2016-2020